Monday, December 21, 2015

Don't blow away!

Hello Monday!

Indeed the Miss Universe 2015 announcement gave chills to all expectators around the globe. I am proud that finally after long years, Philippines was able to get the crown. It may be a disapointing coronation but I am sooo proud of our very own Pia. Congratulations girl!



And also for today, I found my shell-charmed anklets which I got last 2007 in Boracay. Honestly, I got a pair which I have been wearin for years and misplaced them (happy that they were located).

As seen on Boys Over Flowers, when Gu Jun Pyo bought Geum Jandi a cheap shell-made anklet. In the the series, anklets are supposed to be given to someone whom you want to spend the rest of your life with, it's like you are wishing for them not to go away.

So when you receive one, even if it's made of inexpensive material... Keep it coz it is actually from the heart!

So that's it for today! Good night peeps!




Ps. Please excuse this selfie to end my post! Mwahhhh

Saturday, December 19, 2015

The Awaken

Just watched the new Starwars: The Force Awakens and I just wanna share my thoughts on it. I can not consider myself an enthusiast of the franchise but still went to see it as a movie lover.

You might laugh but I cried on the part when Han Solo confronted his son, Kylo Ren. The most loved son was so full of hatred and nothing could soothe his brokenness, not even the affection of his parent and ended killing his beloved father with his light saber. 

Someone might misunderstood me and think that I am meddling with his personal life but I just want him to find time and show a bit of interest for his dear son. I can feel the distance growing farther between them and I don't want same fate for both (yun lang no more no less).

I am not the perfect mother here, I have my flaws and lapses that's why all I wanted is to make him feel wanted.

I guess that's all for tonight and may the force be with all of us! ;)


Thursday, December 17, 2015

Thank you 2015!!!

They say that the past is long gone and it is indeed true, the present is what we have now and whoever is on our side and whatever is our actions now will determine the future.

Now that all baggage-s are resolved I am now ready to face what life is willing to offer ahead. 

I had been courageous enough to eat whatever pride I have and I have done my part.  I am finally happy to forgive myself and all the people who have wronged me and start focusing on the people that will be constant to me, my son, my parents and my sister's family.  This year have been tough but it was worth it for I gained lessons that made me into who I am today. 

I made a list of the people who have been significant to my growth.

To  the person who viewed me as a "nobody" but a beauty, my middle finger to you and f$ck your face.  You may have the brains that can give you the world but walk your talk on morality. You don't deserve every part of me, not even my respect...but I still forgive you and thank you too coz you taught me to be tougher than you have imagined.

To the person who took me for granted, but had the courage to ask for my forgiveness genuinely... I also forgive you. I can not wish you much but thank you too for making me see that I deserve the best.

To my family, indeed at your worst, they are the people who accept you unconditionally and their warmth makes life easier and worth-living.

To a few good friends, I wouldn't have made it through if not for your constant reminders and words of encouragement. Thank you so much.

To my son, thank you for displaying a great strength amidst the chaos that we have been putting you through. And I wish that bitterness  will not eat out your sweetness my love. Just remember though, the things that mama keep on reminding you not to take after the wrong steps of someone that you look up to.

And to God, thank you for the grace. I may not understand your way of showing me things but now I do get it. Your goodness to a sinner like me is so much to be grateful for and your love to an oppressed like me is so miraculously big.

Indeed life is crazy and bumpy and the right people on my side made it extra easy. Thank you life!!! And I am blissful to say goodbye to people undeserving to have a piece of me and hello to a few people who stood by me!



Wednesday, December 9, 2015

Peaceful heart



Good morning Wednesday!

Life has been frustratingly stressful and I am so grateful I get to spend my off with laughters. Yes, life is happier when you begin to accept instances that can no longer be changed.

Thank you Lord for a bright and peaceful day, for the warm smiles of people who care, for the undying love of people that matter... I am at peace and I wish to keep this even in my different lifetime.

Enjoy the rest of your day!

Tuesday, December 1, 2015

Hey there December!

It's the first of December again, the chilly wind makes it sooo painfully nostalgic, the dewy morning makes me miss to cuddle and the Christmas air makes me sweetly desperate. Oh wells, I can't help it coz it is a month that will always be special to me.

I just love the Christmas air! It makes me go back to the memories that I most cherish. The once days filled with love will forever be remembered and will always  tint my lips with the sweetest smile!

Today, I welcomed it with a clear head and a light heart...I feel grateful and good I wanna keep this way!



Hihihi my mood deserves some shameless selfies again lol.


Aside from those, my skin starts to clear as well (thankfully I discovered Dr. Alvin).


I hope that I'll have to keep this smile the whole month though hahaha.

Lemme sign off then with the usual "Hey December please be subtle!"

Good night! ;)

Sunday, November 29, 2015

My wish for you, stranger.

Hey there, stranger.

It’s been a very long time... I’d like to say that I’m glad you are well.

The one thing that can not definitely be done is to cut ties, to leave no strand behind, to slice right through until we no longer remember how to find each other because we have a son.

You knew me inside and out, and I, you. We were there for each other in the best of times and through the most difficult of times. We definitely managed to put each other through hell on occasion, but when support was needed the most, support was given. I mean, we’ve been through so much. You are a part of my life.

You can’t be forgotten because forgetting you would be like forgetting myself — impossible. But then again, maybe you are right. Maybe we are better off as far apart as possible.

We know it would never work... We would keep on hurting each other and it’s not my heart that I’m worried about, but yours. Breaking my own heart would be my responsibility to bear, but I can’t once again be responsible for breaking yours.

So all that I can do is wish you the best. Wish you a great, bright, loving future. Wish you to find the lover of your dreams and to create a lifetime of your fantasies.

I wish for you to find a friend as great as me, but a much better partner. One who won’t drag you through the mud. One who you won’t feel the need to bury with guilt.

I wish you all the best...  wish you nothing short of happiness.

Remember your fatush once in a while...



Tuesday, November 24, 2015

I know we are cool!

I will not make you let me miss out or me let you miss out life... Remember, life is to short to be unhappy. =)  I hope you can see the sincerity of my heart and wish. =)


"Cool" - by Gwen Stefani


It's hard to remember how it felt before 
Now I found the love of my life 
Passes things, get more comfortable
Everything is going right

And after all the obstacles
It's good to see you now with someone else 
And it's such a miracle that you and me are still good friends 
After all that we've been through 
I know we're cool I know we're cool

We used to think it was impossible
Now you call me by my new last name
Memories seem like so long ago
Time always kills the pain

Remember Harbor Boulevard
The dreaming days where the mess was made 
Look how all the kids have grown, 
We have changed but we're still the same 
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool I know we're cool

Yeah, I know we're cool

And I'll be happy for you
If you can be happy for me
Circles and triangles
And now we're hanging out with your new girlfriend 
So far from where we've been 
I know we're cool I know we're cool

Cool, yeah I know we're cool

Wednesday, November 18, 2015

Large heart

I admit I had made some poor choices, I had broken a lot of hearts and I had been insensitive but atleast I accepted that I have erred and that I have learned.

Today, I wanna show that I am capable of redeeming myself by focusing on myself and my son. I have decided to let go of the things and people that hurt me unknowingly or purposely and start again.



Tuesday, November 17, 2015

I didn't know my own strength

"I am strong because I know my weakness.
I am beautiful because I am aware of my flaws.
I am fearless because I learned to recognize illusion from real.
I am wise because I learned from my mistakes.
I love because I have felt hate.
And
I can laugh because I have known sadness."


Believe that you can Tatin and you're halfway there!

"I Didn't Know My Own Strength"
Whitney Houston

Lost touch with my soul
I had nowhere to turn, I had nowhere to go
Lost sight of my dream
Thought it would be the end of me

I thought I'd never make it through
I had no hope to hold on to
I, I thought I would break

I didn't know my own strength
And I crashed down and I tumbled but I did not crumble
I got through all the pain
I didn't know my own strength

Survived my darkest hour, my faith kept me alive
I picked myself back up, hold my head up high
I was not built to break
I didn't know my own strength

Found hope in my heart
I found the light to life my way out of the dark
Found all that I need here inside of me

I thought I'd never find my way
I thought I'd never lift that weight
I thought I would break

I didn't know my own strength
And I crashed down and I tumbled but I did not crumble
I got through all the pain
I didn't know my own strength

Survived my darkest hour, my faith kept me alive
I picked myself back up, hold my head up high
I was not built to break
I didn't know my own strength

There were so many times I wondered
How I'd get through the night
I thought I took all that I could take

I didn't know my own strength
And I crashed down and I tumbled but I did not crumble
I got through all the pain
I didn't know my own strength

My faith kept me alive
I picked myself back up, I hold my head up high
I was not built to break
I didn't know my own strength

I was not built to break, no, no
I got to know my own strength



Monday, November 16, 2015

Confused

I begin to find it amusing rather than upsetting when people start to drift apart and become "strangers again". I have always said it here in my site to never forget and to always cherish those who were always at your side during the toughest times but sometimes things happen and you have no choice but to try to forget them.

I, for one have this one person whom I thought was genuinely real in showing his care, concern, or affection (I no longer know which is which). Honestly, it made me feel so secured and safe. While he healed, I too healed. The companionship has been favorable to both and I am thankful. And then one day, just like that... I no longer knew who he is and I can no longer look at him the way I did when we were together, when I left him and when we decided to become friends. Painful as it may seem, people change, people grow...and most of the time people grow apart...people move on.

On that part, I am lost, hurt and confused maybe because I am losing a big part of myself for good and for real... and I am having a hard time digesting that fact. Part of me says, I am happy that finally he is getting what he deserves and part of me is really really upset.

Messages no longer came, I no longer have the courage to send any like the old days, if there may be some... replies came almost forever.  I can no longer feel the same comfort and warmth. It's now plain awkwardness and silence...I can no longer be myself and laugh the loudest in his company... I guess that's the reason why I am hurt.

Oh well, atleast I can start being with myself. It may be hard to be alone but I'd rather enjoy on my own than be with people who no longer wants my company or be with random people for the sake of having company. Opppsss, atleast I have these few good friends who check on me from time to time. God is still good!



Sooo confused,

Tatin

Saturday, November 14, 2015

Liberate

Today, I am grateful for the few good friends who unselfishly take their time to help me find myself in moments I am no longer unsure of who I am, those friends who always remind me to stay grounded and those people who love and accept me unconditionally, those people who do not hurt me purposely.

All I thought, I am unloved and alone for the longest time, running after people who are not genuine enough.  I am blissful to love myself more now... Thank you Lord, I may have many unanswered questions, I am choosing today to let it go and focus on the person that matters the most, my son.
It is liberating indeed to accept things that can't be undone and save myself from tearing apart. Yes, I am saving what is left of me for the only boy who will be constant in my life, Remus.



Cheer up Tatin, you are beautiful inside out and always remember that the right people know that. Never prove your soul to the wrong people because they don't deserve every bit of it.

Thursday, November 12, 2015

Teardrops

Here's a song that reflects the words of someone that crushed me when I heard them straight from his mouth.

Pasensya Ka Na - by Silent Sanctuary

Hindi mo na mapipilit, wala ng babalikan
Sa liwanag mong nang-aakit, ayoko ng masaktan
Nakikiusap sayo, patawarin mo na lang ako
Patawarin

Pasensya ka na at 'di ko na rin madama
Kay tagal kitang hinihintay
Pasensya ka na at kaya ko ng mag-isa
Kalayaan sa kamay ng lumbay

Ikaw na rin ang nag-sabi, tapos na ang lahat
Uunahin na ang sarili, makuha lang ang sapat
'Wag ka sanang magtampo, mas mabuti na ako'y lumayo
Lumayo

Pasensya ka na at 'di ko na rin madama
Kay tagal kitang hinihintay
Pasensya ka na at kaya ko ng mag-isa
Kalayaan sa kamay ng lumbay

Pasensya ka na at 'di ko na rin madama
Kay tagal kitang hinihintay
Pasensya ka na at kaya ko ng mag-isa
Kalayaan sa kamay ng lumbay

Pasensya ka na at 'di ko na rin madama
Kay tagal kitang hinihintay
Pasensya ka na at kaya ko ng mag-isa
Kalayaan sa kamay ng lumbay

Pasensya ka na
Pasensya ka na
Pasensya ka na
Pasensya ka na


Sunday, November 8, 2015

Fly away...


When you break up with a person, you don't lose just one person.
You lose a lot.
You lose a lot of things, a lot of people.
They take away the moments you spent with them.
They take away that time you put in to build that kind of life.
They take away friends -their friends whom you had started liking and some who had become good friends.
They take away those songs you used to listen when you were together.
Those lanes where you used to walk.
Those movies you watched with them. And the ones which you didn't but were going to.
They take away the person you had become when you were with them. Your identity you had associated yourself with. You were theirs for so long- being someone else's was a part of your identity.
They take away those small things you had saved- now you have no use of the ticket from your first movie or the gift wrappers you managed to save.
They take away those smiles you smiled when someone teased you with their name.
They take away those Facebook tags and photos and status updates which are now meaningless.
They take away those tears, because you will never cry for the same things again, not for another person.
And with all this they take themselves away making sure that you hate some of the things you loved including them.

- Ridhima Shukla

Thankful

Waking up to a brand new day in a hospital bed alive and feeling normal again is another gift to be grateful for.



Thank you Lord for this second chance. I promise that I'll cherish and take care of myself today and I will never take it for granted again.

More reasons to be thankful..
- Gotta selfie pa more
- drink coffee every morning
- more make ups
- laugh my heart out with friends
- and mostly more time with family

Gotta go ladies!


Friday, November 6, 2015

For sure...




Line from One More Chance...

" I love you and I will tell you everyday. 
Everyday until you forget the things that hurt.
I hate the things that make you hurt and how I wish
I could take them away.
If only it could be done.
I'll do it for sure."

Thursday, November 5, 2015

Still...but too late

Today, I woke up feeling really broken and terrible...my unhealthy habits, poor diet, work stress and personal chaos have been takin toll on my body that I am sick again and getting weaker everyday.

I just want to drop a letter today...somethin so personal...somethin from my soul...

To the person whose heart I broke...

More than a decade ago we were good friends... We would always laugh at night with your silly tales and have a good time with your fantastic guitar skills. And then on one Christmas eve, we finally moved from being friends to couples. Do you still remember our first I love you's? Our first Christmas kiss near our window pane? It felt surreal...falling inlove to the point of madness. Your smile, your scent, your laugh, your love... It was truly an answered prayer. All I ever wanted at that time is to spend my whole life loving you.

And so, after a year of being sweerhearts, we decided to move in... And started a family. It was just crazy, we were sooo young, reckless and unprepared with the challenges of staying together but we managed to make it work through the years. We were almost perfect...

But of course, like in any other relationships, we had our fair share of many fights, confrontations, and misundertandings. You are rational and I am emotional...we clashed and I thought our differences could be reconciled but as time flies it made me grew distant.

If only hadn't been that selfish and spoiled, if I had been open about my demons, I could have done something about it. I admit it was my fault and these ifs have all come and gone and I am left with the reality of these lost chances.

I am sorry...I took your love for granted many times.
I am sorry...I cannot cook a decent meal but God knows I tried but with a warm smile you happily ate what is served infront.
I am sorry...I always nag to the point of driving you crazy, to the point of pushing you the wall, to the point of unleashing your dark side that made you violent at times.
I am sorry...I was materialistic at that time but you did your best to give me everything I want and I deserved.
I am sorry...I belittled your work and hated your career  but you showed me that it can provide.
I am sorry... I left you humiliated and badly hurt but you still gave me the care I no longer deserved.
I am sorry...I was too proud to admit I am at fault and I fucked up.

I am sorry for breaking your heart the way I did. It was so unfair and you never deserved it...

I know the word sorry will never be enough to redeem myself and fix things that I have broken but I am still hopeful that one day...

That one day... You will look at me the same. The look of so much love and appreciation. I miss it and how I want to have it again.

But then I am just too late... If only I could turn back time and fix every thing, God knows I would...But I can't.

I heard you found your new love and happiness, I was devastated and at that moment I realized how foolish I am to have let you down...those kind smiles, those warm hugs, those ardent kisses, those wise words, those unlimitted appreciations, those special treatments... I miss them but they are not mine anymore.

I love you still...too bad I am too late.

Monday, November 2, 2015

I learned that...

I learned that the most dangerous heart is that which does not know what love entails but carelessly ensnares another.

I learned that the most dangerous heart is from one that claims to love you earnestly but without commitment; bolts with the wind when reality sets in and finds the object of affection less favourable than its deals or set expectations.

I learned that the most dangerous heart is that which can change in a heartbeat and discard another ruthlessly - numb, with no  care of how painful, traumatic and heartbreaking it would be.

I learned that the words of love are so good to hear and it is prudent not to trust them. These can just be words without any meaning.

I learned that people you love most can be the ones to not mind turning your world upside down and leave you out hanging to dry.

I learned that love is a choice and a commitment to an imperfect person. It is complete acceptance of both light and darkness.

I learned that love is a journey of happy and wholehearted compromises. We can't always have all the qualities and conditions we look for but we can choose to learn and appreciate our differences; motivate each other for the better.

Believe in love but do not love recklessly.

Berlin - artparasites (Charis Gaye)










Tatin

Sunday, November 1, 2015

Butterflies


"Someone once said, if you want something very badly, set it free. If it comes back to you, it's yours forever. If it doesn't, it was never yours to begin with." 
Diana to John, Indecent Proposal 1993


"It's all about a dream anyway... One summer night dream. It was like a summer night dream. It's time for me to disappear now, like last night's dream. Annyeong." 
Cha Eun Sang to Kim Tan, The Heirs 2013


"I want to break up, that's my wish. We always face each other this close, but we were always very far from each other. You don't have to be sorry, I had known it all along. Bye, oppa."
Hyun Joo to Kim Won, The Heirs 2013.

Hello Sweet November.

Saturday, October 31, 2015

Memoirs: Halloween

Every year I always look forward to this time coz I just love watching the kids and adults in their pretty and spooky costumes doing trick or treats.

2010, how can I ever forget this party that ended up disastrously. It was a flair bartending event sponsored by Antonov. It was an open bar... Drinks were overflowing and everyone went crazy jumping in the pool with their clothes on. I was takin pictures when someone grabbed me and I fell into the water that ended the happiness in an ugly brawl.



2015, today is just a new day! A fresh way to celebrate halloween with people who were once there...and we decided to do this pic again (same as 2 years ago) lol.


Lastly, selfies to end this month with my fairy-ish blue horns lol.

"That which does not kill us, makes us stronger." Friedrich Nietzsche

Friday, October 30, 2015

Spooky Tot!

One day more to go and we are goin to say bye bye to October (indeed time flies soooo fast). Previous days of this month had been too much for me and I am really goin crazy... Huhuhu (moments when lots and lots of strength are badly needed). Indeed it had been pretty stressful in all aspects of my life - no exemption. Just when people start drifting apart...with all the unanswered issues and denied facts, deliberately wasted couple of times, my skin is terrible, the company is goin crazy with all the changes... Toxic just toxic!!! 

Though I am havin a hard time holding myself together, I am still grateful for my courage to smile everything away. And you know sometimes, when you're feeling super low; sweet kisses, quick light smacks, warm hugs and a few minutes are all we need for the day.

And despite the demons I have inside, I still managed to drag my butt to work and join the pre-halloween this morning.



Took some couple of mirror-fies... Nothing fancy, just a plain black top from Abercrombie and a schoolgirl skirt I thrifted years ago.


I just groomed my brows and tinted my lips with red coz I can't apply make up due to the terrible skin peeling argghhhh.

So enjoy your halloween too guys... Mwahhhh.

Tuesday, October 27, 2015

Memoirs: Laughter for keeps

Good morning restday!

Yep, gonna be month end soon, so I'm havin my early off and I'm takin advantage of it by just cozy-ing at home plus my skin is on the fourth day of "rejuv treatment", and I am embarrassed to go out with all the redness and peeling.

Today, while I am browsing my sns, I am all smiles to see memories way back so I decided to kick off these " memoirs" section  to record some of my crazy days.


Starting with four years ago, taken at a hotel lobby (forgot na) before a seminar / convention. When people belong to a same group and haven't drifted apart (the once powerful customer care department).



After the convention (ngaragers), we went to have a coffee at Roxas Blvrd... 7 peeps inside a cab and no cash to pay the coffee (cc machine not workin and atm booth is out of reach). Just sooo hilarious!


After or usually before the seminar, these are the times when we would shop till we drop!


Me, shopping like mad for anything korean!!! I never miss a trip to The Faceshop and Etude House then.


And ofcourse, the epic Black Eyed Peas reunion concert!  I bailed out last minute (for a flick with college friends)  hahaha... Good thing though before seeing the movie we dropped by at the media's lounge and I saw Fergie in sparkly pink singing upclose lol!

And ofcourse, how can I ever forget the nerve-wracking travel back to the province. I was sooooo late and almost didn't catch my flight! Lol

So before I say anneong,

Wanna share this Ponds ad that I love..."celebrate your expressions".

"Cry because it's over, smile because it happened.
Use your anger for good, it can be a powerful force.
Be generous with your praise, it makes even the small things matter.
Laugh loudly, argue definitely, celebrate the moment, every expression has the power to make the world a more beautiful place. Express yourself and add your beauty to the world!"


So those were the memoirs of...

Tatin

Monday, October 26, 2015

Change

Hello ladies!

Usually at this time of the year, my skin tends to break. I dunno maybe stress and turmoil make my hormones rage.  Well, almost 3 years ago same chaos had plagued the office which caused me sleepless and stressful nights.

I am sooo anxious again with the change that is about to unfold and I am hoping it will be favorable to many this time.

Hmmm back to my crazy skin...to control it a bit, I tried the Dr. Alvin Rejuvinating set which is kind of popular here in the province, my third day now and my skin is really terrible with all the redness and heavy peeling... Tiis tiis lang.


Have to filter my selfie this time lol!!!  i just want to archive my dark short hair


Yep, I have to ask the stylist to dye it darker and I am pleased with the outcome.


And also, this Valentino studded flats dupe my bestie gave me is love!!! Just sharin... (Pantanggal stress)


Cheer up Tatin, good things are yet to come! Be excited and worry not...

Can't wait! November 4 it is! Fighting!

Sunday, October 25, 2015

Hateful Disaster

It has been a while since I had my bad hair day moments... Today is just a nightmare.

Keeping the hair long is always safe and disaster free coz you can tie it up, let it hang loose, iron or curl it. When I decided to chop it off, I was happy to see a new me... But days after, mmmm I decided to experiment a bit and have it dyed. Waaaaa without thinking the stylist bleached it in bright orange or yellowish and I am not so happy about it. :(


I have always want my color to be natural and laid back... Huhuhu


It is just sooooo screaming bright...omg when I check myself on the mirror... I see a sunny side up.

Oteoke oteoke... Save me!!!

Thursday, October 22, 2015

Drake-ing

Honestly, I have been seeing quotes and poems online written by this certain Drake. I have been sharing and captioning my pics with his works with the thought that he is Drake, the hip hop / musician /singer / producer lol. Forgive me hahaha.

R. M. DRAKE (his pen name) is a self publisher whose works have been all over the world wide web and I have here some of his poems!



"I know I have not been the same and I know there are times when I look at you and I feel like I am staring at someone I barely know anymore. And what kills me the most is, that I know deep down inside when you look at me, you are probably feeling the same thing. And there is no other way to define this than me losing myself here and you, finding yourself somewhere else."

Hugot na hugot diba? Hahaha.  Another one..


"In the middle of nowhere you will find the perfect place to grab a coffee.

In the middle of nowhere you will fall inlove with a stranger.

In the middle of nowhere something will happen that will bring laughter to you for a lifetime.

In the middle of nowhere you will make a life changing decision.

In the middle of nowhere you will stay up all night and think about what just happened.

In the middle of nowhere you will find yourself.

In the middle of nowhere there is somewhere.

In the middle of nowhere you will stay a while.

Something different will happen to you soon. Your moment is around the corner...

In the middle of nowhere."



Awwwww.... :) 



tatin

Tuesday, October 20, 2015

New Me

Hello ladies!

I have always kept my hair long (as in up to my waist) and this morning, I wanted to try something crazy!  Well, I have been planning to cut it months months back but I was not 100% prepared to venture into the unknown lol.

I really don't know what the heck happened, I woke up determined and with no second thoughts, I went to the salon and have the half chopped off for good first thing today (more than half I guess lol).


Tadaaaa!!! Letting go of my oh-sooo-long locks is liberating. It actually felt physically light and emotionally good!!!

Sayonara to my Batosai hairstyle (my son's term for my long hair) and hello to my short-hair-don't-care do!



And ofcourse, a milestone is never complete without selfies!!! Feeling Tey Tey!!!

Bye! Aja aja fighting!


tatin

Sunday, October 18, 2015

Tatin's Heart...again

It's just sad when a person keeps on repeating same insensitive gestures. That feeling when you are being ghosted again and you try to clarify things subtly and the blame is thrown in your face is just heartbreaking.

Sometimes, I question myself why missing and loving someone can be completely disappointing...maybe because it is hard to face the reality that feelings are sometimes never mutual or maybe because of the unforgiven faults.

It is just too bad that when I give in and things get settled some people just become at ease and forget doing the efforts they did in the past to get you in an all in state.

I always find myself in this kind of situation over and over again. And I can't do anything but to cry my heart out again.

My heart is just too big to allow people to keep on stepping on it...

So next time I miss you... all I can do is look inside my heart in silence and never say or question again... 





tatin

Baby boy

"I may not have a big house,a fancy car or other material things that some people place great value on. What I do have is a heart filled to the brim with gratitude for all that I do have.

Gratitude for my life, my friends, my family, the kindness of others and especially for all the love and joy I carry with me on a daily basis. I appreciate it all." - mindful soul


Life has always been warm because I have you! Today is one of the moment I thank God I am alive coz I see the realizations of my wishes in your eyes.

Happy birthday my baby boy and I love you for all eternity.



You're the best present I ever got!



tatin

Saturday, October 17, 2015

Courage...

When everything you want fails... let it go and don't hold back... remember how they loved you in the past.

Let not bitterness eat your sweetness... smile and always be nice and believe that what comes around goes around.

Forgive those who wronged you...not because you've forgotten what they caused but because you deserve the freedom to live fully.

Dream big but never step on someone on your way up...because God is never blind to those you caused sorrow and pain. He is always just and remember He favors them.

Have faith that someone out there will treat you right...will help you pick up the pieces and will change your life. Don't lose your faith on love...

Lastly, never forget the person who was always there when you hit rock bottom, that person who stood with you during your pain, that one person who tried so hard to eat his pain just to see you glow. Never forget him...



Love yourself...



tatin

Thursday, October 15, 2015

Tots Adorbs

Hello Thursday!

I kind of miss my korean madness so I have been playin' my usual nostalgic kpop playlist nonstop these days. The songs from My Lovely Girl just keep on ringing in my head and I can't help but fall inlove with Rain, L of Infinite and my girl crush, Krystal Jung all over again. 


Sharin some clips I love... =) Kilig much =)

 


I just like Krystal's choice of fashion in the series... comfortable yet chic, laid back yet trendy, and young but not loud. It actually inspired me to mix and match the old pieces I have inside my closet :).



So today, I decided to sort of steal her look and maybe put on something young and fresh, ruggedly sexy but not sooo skin-revealing.


Blouse: Calvin Klein Cotton Boyfriend Polo
Skirt: American Eagle Denim A-line Miniskirt (pencil denim skirt is better and I regret throwing away mine lol)
Accesorries: Tissot Classic Watch, stud pearl earrings
Shoes: Penshoppe Essentials plain white sneakers


Please excuse my guts for sharin some of my tales and whims lol.

Posting something here makes me feel good especially when I get to deal with a lot of difficulties at work. Indeed dressin like "who-cares" can be therapeutic.


Have a nice day mwahhhh!!!



tatin

Friday, October 9, 2015

Just 10 things...

I am just goin to quote this famous poem from my all time favorite 1999 movie, 10 things I hate about you.

From Kat Stratford to Patrick Verona...



10 things I hate about you...

I hate the way you talk to me and the way you cut your hair. (When you get pissed off and you talk hurtful words.)

I hate the way you drive my car. (I hate when you overspeed... ).


I hate it when you stare. (When you look intense and it just pierces my soul.)

I hate your dumb big combat boots and the way you read my mind. (No you don't wear those kind... just the way our minds never agreed a lot)


I hate you so much it makes me sick, it even makes me rhyme. I hate it.

I hate the way you're always right. (Sometimes, I am at fault and I just hate that you have a point.)


I hate it when you lie. (I hate it and I died.)

I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. (Awwts)

I hate it when you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call.

But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you.
Not even close, not even little bit, not even at all.



Like Shakespeare's Sonnet 141...the heart chooses to love despite what the eyes can see and the mind already knows. Oh well. It's crazy and often times messy... that's the thing we call love.



tatin

Wednesday, October 7, 2015

It's okay...

"The biggest lesson I've learned is: it's okay.

It's okay for me to be kind to myself.  It's okay to be wrong.  It's okay to get mad.  It's okay to be flawed. It's okay to be happy.  It's okay to move on. "

                                      - Hayley Williams -


"I've learned that a woman with a tough past needs to be treated with patience.  She needs time to breathe, to heal, to rediscover herself.  A mistreated woman will reject love countless amounts of times before she gives in because she has lost the sense of what it is like to be treated right. But the beautiful things about her is the wisdom she gained from her past and the endless capacity of love she has to offer."



tatin

Sunday, October 4, 2015

Sunday and a DIY Graphic Cross Tee

Hello ladies!

Today is just fun and I just want to share something that I accidentally saw over the net while I'm basically just surfin...it's a DIY way to pimp old shirts lol.

I have a few of plain white tees and paints, I decided to give those easy online tutorials a try to create something trendy. And since I love streetwear-kinda-grunge fashion I went for a graphic cross t-shirt, Forever 21 inspired design lol. Fyi, I love wearing anything with a cross on it eversince lol.

Materials we need:


An old plain white cotton t-shirt, I got this months months back from an Indian bazaar here in the province for Php100 plus I guess.


Tulco Classic Textile Ink. It's a high quality water-based material for textiles. It's non-toxic, environment-friendly and really affordable for only Php65.00. This is actually for printing shirts with a mesh screen but I used a paint brush instead.


I like using this kind of brush coz it's pocket friendly. I just throw them away after several use. Sorry, cleaning brushes are really tedious that's why I only buy the most affordable offered in the market.


We also need scissors and manila paper for our stencil. You may use coupon bond or duct tapes instead.

Just put your stencil on the desired area and secure it with a tape so it won't move and leaks will be avoided. Then start  painting in one direction.


As you can see, I didn't secure my stencil well since I don't have tapes.  Please don't push it, this will cause errors and unpretty paint overflows on the edges.

Don't forget to put a layer of manila paper in between the sheet to avoid staining the other side of your shirt. Then let it dry before removing the pattern.


Tadaaaa, it doesn't need to be perfect so that it will look grunge-y and worn-out (palusot) hahaha. Iron the top or the design but put something on top of it (used manila paper again). This will like treat the paint, like stamping it permanently on the textile. Then cut the neck line and sleeves to make it more chic.


And yes I got my old shirt turned into funky streetwear now, who would have guessed I hand painted it hahaha.


Casually sexy for a hot coffee on  Sunday afternoon hahaha (forgive me).

Shirt: Tatin's Creation (Graphic Cross Tee)
Shorts: High waste from Greenhills tiange
Accessories: double-side stud earrings in pitch black, Casio Eminem G-shock
Bag: Converse red sling bag
Sandals: Birkenstock Arizona


I love Sundays! A day I can be myself, do things I love, unwind and relax a bit, laugh and drink coffee, go to the arcade (yes with my baby), say my prayers and be grateful. Life is simple and I love it that way!

That's it for this evening. Mwahhh!!!